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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

"Dans le Flou"

Hello world. Or not. I'm not really sure how or what to do here or who will ever actually read this, but as a 23-year old young professional in the new decade, it is my New Years resolution for 2010 to blog for one year about my life 'dans le flou.' In French, dans le flou means between two stages, at at twenty three, that pretty much sums up where I feel I am in my life. The life of the proverbial college student is over, despite continuation to graduate school, and unfortunately, my graduate work, or lack there of, has me waiting for the professional job of my choosing until my degree is complete while I mindlessly work at a entry level position to get me through graduate school.

In other words, I'm in limbo- not yet an adult, but certainly no longer a child or adolescent. And I feel this must be a similar feeling for, not all, but some hard working and driven early-to-mid twenty something's like myself. Sometimes it seems like this this is the time in life that is a black hole of nothingness- nothing exciting about daily life, nothing immediate to look forward to, and everyone you know if moving in a million different directions at a million different speeds.

After moving at warp speed through the lazy days and exciting nights of undergraduate college and all the hype of graduation, life now at the immediate post-graduate years can tend to seem overwhelming, or empty, and we are left with the thought 'now what?' Some of us are lucky and find great jobs soon after graduation. Others marry their high school or college sweethearts and start their families, but I would wager that on the whole (being completely biased of course) there are people like me or those I know from experience, who are continuing their education for any prospect of a professional job, working at a monotonous entry level positions, and moving home while everyone around us seemingly moves on with life.

It's a a time where life is a double-edged sword- the world is a buffet with everything theoretically for the taking, yet we don't always know what we want, what to look for or what to expect. There are handbooks, articles, and what can seem like a never-ending parade of familial advice on how to deal with high school, college, weddings, parenting, but sometimes it feels like there is a huge void of conversation about this time- the in between - life when you are living in an adult world without feeling like you fit there, without feeling like you really are an adult.

At least, this is my life. Right for the last year and a half until now. I may seem to make assumptions or large, sweeping statements, but at the end of the day, this is only my experience, but I hope that if nothing else, it gives someone (maybe even just myself) a perspective on life dans le flou, between two stages.

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